reminiscing

You and me?

2011-06-12T05:52:00.003+08:00

There's always up and down in relationship.

Giving a time off. Had enough.

Coming to 3 weeks of suffering is not funny.

I'm cool.

The 40th day

2011-06-09T21:13:00.004+08:00

I miss holding Mak's hand tightly.
I miss going Bukit Batok with her just to get our chicken rice there.

I miss smelling her armpit and her face.
I miss sleeping with her.

I miss looking at her face.
I miss kissing her all over her face.
I miss her cooking.
I miss her touch.
I terribly miss her.

Mak, I'm sorry for everything. It's your 40th day.... May we meet again. I love you....

Mak Sayang :')

2011-05-22T04:25:00.004+08:00

I know I've not been updating my blog regularly and I'm sorry bout that. I've lost someone special in my life. My grandmother. More like a mother to me. I lost her and she's in heaven now watching over me. It's been 23 days and everything that happened are still fresh in my mind. I still cry whenever I think of her. I miss her terribly. Every single day i see her face. No one knows how me and my family feel. The closeness we have. I don't wish to talk further. Mak, may you rest in peace and be with beautiful people and beautiful angels. God watching over you and HE know that you're a good mother and a good person in this world. I love you and I miss you. May we meet again in the other world. :')

Boyfriend, thank you for being there for me. I love you. Nothing else matter now. Only you, me and the future. He is awwwesommmeeeee. Never did i expect that we are happily together. I love you choc man. You're ma MAN. ;)

Everyday I'm shuffling

2011-04-19T03:16:00.003+08:00

I'm in love.

I've been spending my life with so much love from him.

His cool, like seriously.

I can even punch him when I'm not happy. *k part tuh bedekkkk*

Because of him, my tummy now is expanding. Literally BIG!

Omnomonomnom~

I'm truly in love with him.

Thanks to zoukout. ;D

2011-04-09T20:44:00.002+08:00

I've been party non-stop and i need a break.

Let's get back on track for real.

I need to be a good teacher. heh?

I'm having fun with my boyfriend every single day.

mmm, boyfriend? :P

Happy 14 Birthday Sister

2011-03-22T05:54:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY LIL SISTER!

May you have a blast this week. I'm sure we (family) gonna spend your birthday this whole week.

You're 14 now. Study smart don't study hard. Kakak love you though at times I'm being a bitch toward you but trust me, I have you in my heart. Stop skipping school and please please please don't be like me, crazy. haha. Love you!

Anyway, I've been spending my nights thinking bout my life and etc... And I think, I have to cut down on everything I did. Everything. It's time for me to enjoy my every single time with my girlfriends. I miss them like terribly. I'm sorry as I was away for like 3 weeks plus? I know I'm being ridiculous at times (just because of a guy -.o) but you know me, every single thing that anyone had done wrong to me, can affect me thousand times in my life. lol. kinda dramatic. CUT IT!

I began to think, what's the use of you hanging around in someone's life that do not know how to appreciate you... NOTHING! The answer is NOTHING. You don't gain anything, you don't loose anything. Yes? No? Maybe? For some, gain nothing but loose a lot. Like money wise or maybe your own dignity?... For me, money. Not being a money face here but I sacrifice a lot on money wise. Then again, no point talking, no point thinking... Things happened. So just accept it and erase those memo from my life. Take things positively. It's okay of people took advantage of you cuz GOD is being fair. They did bad things to you, they'll deserve a bad thing from GOD. Don't play-play hor! Ok, stop blabbering bout this.

So Nabs is home. Welcome home sister. Please kindly tidy up the living room cuz it's full of your stuff. I hate to see it and it irritates me a lot! So if you don't want me to membebel at you, please kindly clean the mess up. Taiwan so boring meh till you buy unnecessary stuff such as, FOOD? -.O

Tryna put my ego aside

2011-03-18T17:16:00.003+08:00

I've been asking to myself. Why am I leading this type of life. What do I get or rather what do I want actually. Complications everywhere. I'm tired. I don't need a love life now because it make me so confused till I don't know where it leads to. Like now. Dating with someone new but don't know where it lead to. Been trying to put a smile on my face every now and then. It's just a mask not a sincere one. So whoever got my smile or laughter this few days, well that is just a mask that I've put up on my face. I just cannot be bothered by everything that happen in the world anymore. Yes, I'm temporarily out of control. I can't control my feelings. Just because of one person, everyone will get the fuckup side of me. So be it. I'm being selfish now. Good day!

Life is wonderful

2011-03-14T18:33:00.007+08:00

Someone made me realize something......

I don't need a man/guy/jerk/boy to live my life to the fullest.
It's his lost to loose me. God is helping me. HE just want me to have a good and brighter future.

God just want me to be with a man that can show me the right path.
Thank you An for the coax. =)

I got my voice back so now I can shout to anyone that I like.
Thank you, I know I'm being irritating. Without me being irritating, I guess that's not me.
People love me being irritating. (Ok, now i feel irritated. -.-")

On the random part, I miss going Zouk. :/

Okay, so here it is.
I've been seeing my friends,sister, and FB friends doing Formspring.... Is it good? haha.
I know I'm being so kental right now. Not that I'm not up to date. It's just that I need to do another account and the feary part are random people or anonymous people will ask me question?.... Right? Hahahah~ Anyway, I just did one. :P

So now I got Twitter, Facebook, Multiply, Hotmail, Formspring, Photobucket, Blogger, Bearshare, Itunes and yadayadayada. Too much of cyber-world is not good for your health! :P

So people, do ask me questions. Any type of question that satisfy you people. =)

Botja Laron did a good job yesterday, 13th March. It's our 33rd year anniversary and was held at Kampung Melayu. Received a good complementation from viewers there and other team that watched us. Thank you for the support and thank you for having time to come down and watch us. Greatly Appreciated. =)

Thank you An for coming down.

Insyallah next week, I'll come down watching you guys performing.

No promises. Heh~

2011-03-07T15:31:00.003+08:00

I need my girls.Let's party soon, lovelies! :D

FEVER PLEASE GO AWAY!

How to move on?

2011-03-05T07:27:00.011+08:00

I'm down with flu,fever,bad cough,bad headache,itchy throat and etc.... I didn't know that breaking up with you can affect my health badly. I thought you are the one that I've been searching for. (normal phrase for a women huh?) Every single day we spent time with the kids and mostly with each other.. The laughter after all. Yes, you might not know how to take care of a women's heart but you know how to make a women smile. It's not easy to make a women smile, feel warm, feel secured and mostly feel the loved. I just hate a lying situation. Just hate it. I don't feel regret but I feel hatred. I've tried to abide the feelings but I just couldn't help it. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise huh? What's more can I do. Cry? Doesn't solve anything. Run away from the problems? Till when?................

Just hope that one day you will realize it.
Marcell.

I would love to move on. I would love to have fun with my girlfriends and boyfriends. I would love to laugh and enjoy life back. I would love to go out and spend my money recklessly. I would love to do all those. All I just want to be happy. What does the world want from me? Ex-fiancée is being a bitch but I don't blame him. Maybe our family connection are just too strong. All I know, I just couldn't be bothered by that and all I know I'm leading a simple life with more and more heartbreaks. It's not easy to be me. It's not easy to be Siti Naqiah. It's not easy. People can see me party here and there, having fun but behind that smile and laughter they don't know what's happening.

Big sister was quite worried about me because I've abandoned my phone for the past 2 days and therefore she will like some accompany at her place, The Sail.I guess I'll be at her place for a few days till I'm strong to get up on my feet. I hope I'll get to throw away the stress and leave it there and hopefully it won't come back to me as I don't need it. Booze, a good swim and fellow friends is a must. After all they bring laughter.

2011-03-01T19:02:00.002+08:00

I'm happy to know you.
I'm happy to have you.
I'm happy to be with you.
But I'm not happy to know you as a jerk.

I've given my best. \m/

2011-02-12T03:31:00.002+08:00

It will be rare for me to buy tops/bottoms from Bugis St although I know the area there had revamp the quality and fashion style to be cool.I'm not discriminating anyone here that bought stuff from there and I'm not being judgmental or materialistic/ high-maintenance.I admit I'm choosy when come to tops/bottoms just because of the quality and I'm used to that brand(s).Anyway, if YOU out there tryna say that I'm a low class quality girl to people outside, well you got me wrong girl. My girlfriends and I are up there. Snap a finger and there we got it. Well if you still love boosting about me by all means.I pity you.Awwe... B.I.T.C.H !

2011-02-08T04:46:00.003+08:00

How to Keep Your Girlfriend Happy.

One & Only. Your girlfriend should be your one & only. Make her feel special, k guys? You’re lucky to have her even if she’s lucky to have you too. We know there are prettier out there but we like feeling as if we’re the only beautiful one in your eyes, & the only one you see.

“Ladies first.” No. That rule doesn’t apply to communication. Don’t wait for her call, text, IM, why don’t you try talking to her first for a change ? It’s thoughtful & sweet if a guy can actually do that.

Surprise her. You don’t have to drive an hour to her house at 3 a.m. to set off her name in fireworks in front of her window, but the little things are big things. A simple, good morning text, is more powerful than you think.

What insecurities ? For the love of God, all girls have insecurities. Please don’t point them out. For example, today I was looking at food & my boyfriend said “You eat a lot. You probably could beat me at a buffet.” WHAT. THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY. Also, let her be herself. If she’s having a bad hair day, don’t make fun of her if it’s hurtful. Let her wear sweatpants & still feel pretty damn cute around you, even when she’s not looking her best.

Act the same around your friends. You’re not a real man if you completely blow off your girl in front of your homeboys. When you’re going to hang out with her & your friends you better not run off & leave her standing there to greet them like WUDDUPPP GUYSSS.. NO, you better at least walk with her & introduce her to them if you haven’t already. If you walk with her hand in hand, she’ll love it.

When she’s mad. Dude, you better try & get her back. Chase her, whatever it is, don’t let her walk away when she’s mad at you. It shows you don’t care enough to go after her. Don’t let her go.

Maintain. If you did a bunch of cute things with her before, try & keep it up. You don’t have to go all out everyday for her, but don’t stop completely just because you got her already.

Honesty. If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost.

Trust. If your girl really doesn’t like one of your friends, trust, she has good reason to. Girls’ intuition -shrug- So don’t go hanging with your homegirl all the time if you know your girlfriend doesn’t like that bitch. She usually won’t hate for no reason. Respect her.

Love her. That’s all.

2011-02-07T05:33:00.003+08:00

I'm overreact.
Everyone closed to me get my bitch attitude.
I'm sorry. I just can't control it any further.
I had bad times with Naaz and I fucking can't get any patience with him.
I will just walk away and never turn back cuz I got plenty of
time need to be spend with.
Family and friends.
Get out of my way, ass. :)

*Ex-fiance-to-be calling.*
Another MAJOR problem.
URGH!!

2011-01-27T16:00:00.003+08:00

Here a proper post..

What I've been doing with life lately?
Spending my precious time with love.
Spending my precious time with the kids.
Spending my precious time with my family.
Spending my precious time with the closest friends.

2011 bring me joy.
Love.Happiness.Prosperity.

Mommy being so good to me this year.
Pamper me with everything that I want and shower me with love.
Same goes to Daddy although at times he is being a bitch.
I love you both. =)

To love.
At time I do feel paranoid bout you and I know I'm not being fair towards you. Thanks to the ex-boyfriend that made me what I am today. A paranoid girl. But thank God your craziness make me overcome that(sometime)and whenever I do feel something amiss bout you, I think of the kids. They make me happy and make me feel I'm somehow to be loved. You know, it's true what people say... Kids bring joy to family. So love, listen here very well. I put a trust on you so please don't be like my ex-boyfriends that take advantage of my trust and go beyond limit. You know, you are one in a million. Different and more maturely thinking though at times you're such a bitch. Oh well, I can't wait to meet you later and same goes to the kids. " Ayyan, mi love you! "

2011-01-01T23:29:00.002+08:00

2011
- Meet someone new.
- Get a good and stable job.
- Bring a lot and a lot of happiness in life.
- More getaway!

Short and simple.
Thank to God I met someone new.
Started a new year with a smile.
& you Mr, be nice with me this year, 2011.

2010-12-30T11:02:00.005+08:00

They are the pillar of strength for me to move on and enjoy life. Iloveyou people to bits and pieces.

My everything. They are most important people in my life. <3

2010 gona end soon. 1 more day to go and here come 2011. I'm so sexcited bout it and I just can't wait. 2010 has been a bad year for me but fortunately it give me more strength and taught me on how to deal with problematic peoples. I am so lucky to be me. I'm proud of myself that eventually I've moved on and I got nothing to do with people(S) that non-stop giving me problems. Look at what I have now. Great friends~ Great life~ Great lover~ 2011 I can't wait for you. I'm gonna update this again bout my new resolution for 2011.

2010-12-20T00:36:00.005+08:00

Sexy as hell~
Johnny Depp. *slurp*

Gonna get a new tatt soon.

2010-12-01T21:19:00.002+08:00

Hello December. Please be nice. December = Party and holiday month.

Sorry for the lack of updates. Thanks to a stalker.
*One more time you stalk me or your number appear on my phone, I'll straight away report to the police.

I've been busy working and I'm sorry for the lack of commitment with bestfriend(S).
Zoukout is coming and partaayyy!

You've been doing upteens times.

2010-11-26T17:50:00.004+08:00

I've suspected long ago. For all I know, they are not humans. Period.
I hope you, jantan keparat, will not find me again and again.
Patah balik ngan aku lepas tuh scandal dengan orang lain. Dasar jantan keparat. Jantan sundal. :)
Your life is full of shit. No wonder la perangai macam taik.

I deserve better. You? NO WAY.

Fir listen here

2010-11-18T04:45:00.003+08:00

I'm finding a decent relationship that requires a couple to love for each other naturally. Period.

2010-11-15T14:24:00.002+08:00

Sitting on my office chair one whole day can make my ass tepos or not? lol.
Freaking bored laaaaaaaaaa.

Anyway, since everyone busy with work and work and work let me just say to you people.
Don't forget to meet me laaaaaaaaaa! :(
*Biler aku tk ot korg habis keje lambat. Biler aku ot korg habis keje siang. Baaaaayyyeeeeekkk! "

Well check out my fb( to those people that have my acc only! )
I upload certain old pictures. Hahah~
Pictures when I am still part of the esplanade people.
Pictures when I'm still LUNY.
Pictures when I'm closed to Shima (miss that ALOT)
Pictures when I was in Secondary, super mischievous.
Well that was the past. You people can laugh bout it. HAHAH~

Will update soon ait. :)

Dear Alfa....

2010-11-12T03:58:00.002+08:00

This few days, it's been a tough time between me and Alfs. Both of us busy working. He have been continuously OT OT and OT. While me, home straight after work. Boring life. -.-" He need saving for his thing and I need saving for my vacations and my upcoming Dip. bleargh~ life is so stressful.

I've been thinking bout us lately.... will you......
will you hug me and stand by me, again ,whenever I'm down with problems?
will you kiss on my forehead again just to ensure that everything gonna be alright?
will you bring me out and make me like a princess again?
will you scold me and throw my things again?
will you show up in front of my doorstep (without me knowing) again?
will you surprise me again?
will you hold my hand and kiss it in public again?
will you walk down the path way at marina barrage with me and say ILOVEYOU to me again?
will you call me and talk on the phone till the next morning?
will you text me randomly and give me a short messages that irrit me till death, again?
will you talk to me for our future plan again?
will you accompany me to nenek house again?
will you come to me and lay out all your problems again?
will you hug me tightly and will never wana let go of me till i scream at you?
will you feel the insecurity again when you see my boy-friends name on my mobile phone?
will you hold my hand tightly whenever we were crossing the road again?
will you say iloveyou at the end of every of our conversation again?
will you sing for me whenever im not in a good mood with you, again?
lastly, will you ever take my hand and kneel down just to say that " you belong to me" again?
will you?.......

L.O.V.E

2010-11-08T01:05:00.006+08:00

I LOVE YOU BOTH! MUAH MUAH MUAH!

&

THIS FELLOW!!!!

Daily Rants.

2010-10-28T14:04:00.004+08:00

One more day to Spooktacular.. I so can't wait!

Anyway life have been more better than ever. I'm missing Anna badly.
Thank God finally today after work, we will be meeting. I can't wait to laugh with her!

Although I do still keep thinking of him but then again I still have to pursue my career. *cross finger*
Shit happens. The only thing that I could do is just smile and stand strong.

Family are doing fine. Friends are doing great. Everyone that are loved are absolutely happy and doing just perfectly fine. Although everyone now are busy with schooling and working, still we do meet up every now and then to catch up each other life. I love you people. You guys are the greatest people on earth. :)

& Adu, nice try. -.-"

Halloween

2010-10-25T02:08:00.002+08:00

I soooooooooooooo can't wait. Muahahahahaha~
I loooove halloweeennnn.

Oh plus plus Saturday will be at Clarke Quay with the bestfriend(S).
Love you people. :)

Maybe a Sign from HIM

2010-10-24T04:42:00.010+08:00

I read back my archive and I just realized something.....

Why I still hold onto my past....That is my mistake. Holding onto my past, it prove to me that I'm not moving on.The silliest mindset that I have is that, by holding on to my past, it make me grow much more stronger and feel that we are just meant to be together but in actual fact NOT. I have to be strong and brave enough to face the reality, the future and the world. No more fairytale stories. I once wasted a guy that I have always wanted (Zal) but now no, not anymore. I'm old enough to think. May HE guide me throughout the journey of my life finding the right one. Insyallah.

I found this music video from Ayun's Fb. I love it and I kept repeating it till now.
Soothing and relaxing song.

Anyway, I'm doing perfectly fine now. I still have my girlfriends to cheer me up. I was hoping myself to dream bout something sweet between me and fir (y'kno after realizing that the 4 years are really gone for good? ) but I was surprised that I dream of me and Zal. Although it's sweet but it's weird too. Hope his doing fine.... :)

Goodbye 4 years.

2010-10-23T06:07:00.004+08:00

Every time

You commit one more mistake
You feel you can't repent and that it's way too late
You're so confused
Wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full shame
But don't despair
And never lose hope
Coz Allah is always by your side

p.s: Fir, take care wherever you are. :/

Dear hypocrite

2010-10-18T01:22:00.003+08:00

Dari dulu sampai sekarang. Manusia tak henti-henti bagi hidup aku susah.
Cerita dongeng tak henti-henti. Ini lah orang Melayu. Hidup penuh dengan cerita dongeng. Tak pun, tuduh-menuduh. Ye la, nak menang satu hal, nak tunjuk yang dia seorang yang baik lagi satu hal. Pandai buat cerita, pandai buat mulut tapi takut nak mengaku salah. BODOH~ Aku bukan cakap aku je la yang bagus. Semua orang buat kesilapan tapi tahu la pula diorang sedar dan mintak maaf. Tak apa lah, kau kumpul banyak-banyak dosa kau lepas itu kalau dah sedar pandai-pandai lah bawak diri.

2010-10-15T04:56:00.002+08:00

Shits happened and I hate it.
You are a disaster in my life.
You create another fairytale story with another woman.
I'm not surprise if one day you come back crawling.

p.s: All those words that u tell her now is the same thing you told me back then.

My Bestfriend Afiq

2010-10-09T08:48:00.007+08:00

Conversation between me and my bestfriend, Afiq.

Afiq- So what you gona be for this upcoming Halloween?....
Naq- ummmm, i don't know. you?
Afiq- i wana be a vampire. Suck blood. wooooooo~ *pervert face*
Naq- ohmygodddddd! you already look like one, Mr!
Afiq- i want you to be the hot nurse so that i can suck blood from you. WAHAHAH!
Naq- Baby, wana kiss my fist?...

Ohmygod! I so wana kill you la for being so cute. Hahah! Anyway, I wana say thank you for all this while that you've been here for me. Ups and down. Although you look like a f***ing pervert and Edward Scissors Hand, still i love you as my bestfriend. I miss you although the past 2 days you met me and bring me out. lol. Seeing you in uniform turns me off~ Urgh! With your eyebags like omg la. Thanks for sharing your ehem life and I know you do enjoy mine too rightttt? HAHA~ He is one and only boy-friend that I can trust. I'm being extra friendly and kind today okay MR! :) Although you sucks at times well atleast you still make my day whenever you text or call me. HAHA~ kinda stupid when we both quarrel over a small issue. Again he is soooo PATHETIC! :D

My room smell of Adu's perfume. Oh god this is another insane bugger. I've already threw his shirt away but the smell just can't get away la from my room. Stop reminding me of him and those incidents. pffftt~ Sometimes it's hard to explain when shit happens.

Anyway I'm right here, still alive. Still standing strong. Thanks to my closes ones and to my family that non-stop contributing stupid ideas for me to go on and enjoy life. lol. Sometime you people can be a pain in the ass but from the bottom of my heart, I love you people to bits and pieces. Awwwww~ How sweet can you be Naq :) .

To Fir and Alfa:-
Stop entering my life as when you both like it. Both of you making my life a big mess. Yang satu takut kawan yang lagi satu takut nk face the reality. Might as well jangan hidop terus. Just stop! I can't tolerate any further. :/

Zoukout

2010-10-02T19:42:00.003+08:00

Received RSVP bout Zoukout on 11 December 2010,
I sooooooo can't wait and will be going with the love ones.
Everything planned and it's time to enjoy.

Tomorrow is Sunday and I can't wait~
Sayang alpaaaaaaaa. :)

Okay anyway Raya coming to an end soon.
Mom gona do a house warming on next week Saturday/Sunday.
I soooo can't wait. I'll update bout that soon.
And I know my blog is dead. I'll do a proper update soon.

Oh ya to my stalkers and the kpo-kpo people out there.
You doesn't need to tell him bout my updates.
I'm doing great and I have a good time with the people I love.
Like I said, SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH UP!

Thank you~ :)

2010-09-24T03:40:00.003+08:00

Whenever I looked back at our photos.. I will tend to cry. Not because of the past but because of how much I miss you.. Even though just now you have the initiative to pop out in front of my door step just to coax me and well at the very least, I get to see your face, hug and kiss. How I wish everyday we're like this. My life will be much happier as ever. But I know somehow we're not official yet.... Kinda disheartened but I thankful enough of what he have showered me with. Love, Care and Concern.

Something that I learn from him just now... We watch the movie together and I'm so touched by it.

" Cinta adalah kekuatan yang
mampu mengubah duri jadi mawar...
Mengubah cuka jadi anggur..
Mengubah sedih jadi riang..
Mengubah amarah jadi ramah..
Mengubah musibah jadi muhibbah..
Itulah cinta. "

2010-09-19T09:31:00.002+08:00

Happy 40th Birthday Mama.
Panjang umur, Murah rezeki. Amin.
Already 40, please act like one.. Although you kept saying to people.
"Old in age, young at heart." heheh~
Insyallah, at the end of this month Alfa and me gonna bring you out for a special dinner.

Anyway, I can't wait for a big interview on 25. Something related to my ambition.
If you know me very very well, you know what I'm talking about. :)

Alright, Toodles~

2010-09-10T05:39:00.003+08:00

Salam Idulfitri Mohon Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.
Tulus Ikhlas Dari Siti Naqiah Dan Sekeluarga. :)

Ramadhan telah berlalu, Syawal pula tiba.
Banyak yang telah aku pelajari sepanjang Ramadhan ini.
Terima Kasih kepadaNya kerana telah menunjukkan aku mana yang baik
dan mana yang buruk. Alhamdullilah.

Sepanjang bulan Ramadhan ini banyak yang telah berlaku.
1. Memberi aku erti persahabatan.
2. Selama 18 belas tahun aku pijak di bumi ini, tahun ini adalah pertama kali aku rasa kasih sayang dari seorang ibu dan bapa. Sayang sangat-sangat. :)
3. Temu kembali dengan seorang kawan rapat yang telah bertahun2 bersama aku, Anna. :)

Hari Raya tahun ini nampaknya aku sambut Raya dengan keluarga dan kawan-kawan rapat ajela... No someone special at the moment. Heheh. Sedih ada, gembira ada... Macam-macam la feeling aku ni. Tapi takpe, as long as aku enjoy, aku happy. :)

This year I'm wearing maroon. Nampaknya tahun ini, sama colour dengan Alfa. Hmmm.... Can't deny that I still furious with him but till when right... Anyway Mr Alfa, jumpa aja di rumah Oma ya nanti....

Teringat pula dengan Arwah pak busu. Dah 4 tahun berlalu. Dirimu akan selalu diingati dengan orang tercinta. Semoga kamu ditempatkan dengan orang-orang yang beriman. Amin. :')

5th day of Ramadhan

2010-08-14T08:01:00.003+08:00

Alhamdullilah... It's the 5th day of Ramadhan...

Everything went on smoothly...
I met abang... I miss you terribly.. Hope to get to see you later, again.
Bonding.... heee~ :)

I miss my Dating partner.
I'm sorry if i got no time for you as I was buzy schooling and
buzy spending time with my families.... No matter what, I will still
find time to meet you and go out together ait...

Hmmm... It's been 28 days that you and me are dating...
I'm happy whenever I'm with you. I can't stop laughing because of your
stupidity although mostly it come from me. lol.

Hi Burung, Welcome to my Pampered world.
Please pamper me very very well. I'm soooooo cerewet when come to food.
hahahaha~ perangai budak gemok betoooooooool! I will tend to be cranky without any
warning, without any reason. So handle me with care. ;)

p.s: We are still Dating... Not yet into a relationship... Get the fact right.

2010-08-11T06:01:00.002+08:00

First day of Ramadhan......

Happy Fasting people.

I found someone new.
Welcome to my life. :D

Abang is out. Kening kau kenapa macam matrep...
Oh sorry, you are one of them. hahah~
I love you big brother. Be good ya...

p.s: I'm fasting so please don't make me angry today... :)

Untuk manusia yg paling sial, tersial sial.

2010-07-26T13:01:00.002+08:00

Congrats on you having someone new in your life.
Favour ah , jgn carik aku lagi ah.
kau boleh enjoy... aku pon boleh enjoy.
Skg kau tgh enjoy kn, k it's time for me to enjoy sepuas-puasnye.
Nak sgt tgk Luny kan, k sini meh tgk.
And one more think, jgn sebok-sebok tgk blog aku pls.
K-po. Asik update psl aku thru blog lepas tuh step nak marah-marah.
Kpala buto la. Aku da tkder heran ngan kau lagi.
Da kene prek, TOLONG JANGAN CARIK AKU LAGI.

Sorry for the harsh post. Just for someone useless.

2010-07-24T04:24:00.002+08:00

All that I need for now. :D

Doing assignment in the middle of the night.
Perasaan die macam sial. pffft!

Damn lazy to update my blog.
1. No time. Buzy sleeping, chilling and schooling. -.-
2. Just being plain lazy. Tak penting!
3. Nothing to update about me. Those who know me very well, tau la korangggggg.
4. L.A.Z.Y

Leaving the past behind actually is not that bad neither it's hard. It might be painful but when times kill, it is just superb happy and nice to blend it in. I believe that I'm not loosing in any point of "mess"except for Zal. Yes, I admit loosing him once was a terrible horrible experienced in my life but I took it as a lesson though. Appreciate people surround you. I don't mind loosing those people that had been troubling me and stuff. I don't mind loosing people that had been making me cry for umpteen times. It is just WORTHLESS to think bout them. I don't hate but I just dislike. Life is too short to hate. :)
p.s: sesiapa disana terasa, AMIK KAU! :)

Spring cleaning my house and i found several pictures. Old pictures. I cried. I miss pakbusu real much. RIP. Hope you doing well up there. I don't wish to loose my closes people in life again. Insyallah....

2010-07-20T07:16:00.003+08:00

Nights after nights. I've been dreaming bout you....
What is it now......

The fact is I still think bout you.
Zal....

Belated Birthday

2010-07-13T07:47:00.006+08:00

10 July. Belated Birthday celebration with them. <3
Town to Clarke Quay.

Birthday

2010-07-13T07:29:00.007+08:00

2nd July 2010

@ Zouk. Dash Berlin. They made my nights. Iloveyou guys. Especially to Nura for cheering me up on my birthday. Thank you so much. <3

2010-07-04T03:16:00.002+08:00

I've done my job! Remember of what you had said.

2010-06-24T17:34:00.005+08:00

I broke into tears before i went to my dreamland yesterday night. I just can't stop thinking of what he had done. Angry and at the same time I miss the old him. The period where he take care of me and so on. Where he only got me and no one else. Just me and his world. Why he changed into a beast?...... Ever since his in NS, he totally changed. Everything. No one knows him very well except for me. His good, his bad... When can he realize things... I just want him to realize. I knew it from a start that he had not changed to be a better person. I knew it. But because of everyone surrounds me and him, I decided to make a move and be with him. It's not easy. But i tried till the feeling is there again. Finally when the feeling is there again, he throw me shits after shits after shits. What is this.... Why are you being so evil Mr Fatty?.... why? 4 years.... Along the journey it's been a miserable journey for me but when we finally make it to the peak, shits come and it comes from you.... Why?.........

The fact is me and Alfa are nothing. I can't possibly break the relation apart with him cuz no matter how hard it is we are still family. He is my step cousin. I can't possibly ignored him for the rest of my life. My grandmother is his grandmother. My aunties is his aunties. His mom is my my aunt. Tell me, how can i break that relations. True enough i still contact with him but with reasons. Not ex gfbf reasons, mind you!

I've been going out meeting my friends. Went out just to occupy my mind. Making myself busy. Meeting new people in life. I've letting what in my heart had holds for the past few months and now everything i burst it out to my one and only dreadlocks girl, that is Nura. She's there for me. Thank you babygirl. Not forgetting Fyzah the maknenek for telling me to move on without fail. She know how i feel. Having you both in my life is enough. I gained back everything and I'm happy......

2010-06-22T19:40:00.004+08:00

Been awhile that i have a proper post. So let start......
This few days, i had something interesting, heart-breaking incident happened to me.
Wah! long time i never post about him ya.... Who else, Firdaus la. -.-

As those who know. We know each other around July 2006. We started our relationship around that month too la. We ended our relationship on the month of February 2008. Amazing, lama tau tuh.. Anyway we don't stop there. We still continue to be together till June/July 2008 with no status. Very well. I get to know Alfa on August 2008 and we started dating till October 2008. October 2008, he proposed to me to be his Girlfriend and we lasted until June 2009. A year plus with him. Can't denied that along the journey I am the happiest girl to have him as my boyfriend. Maybe we are just not meant for each other... Anyway, August 2009, I get to know Sharizal. Cute guy. Understanding guy and so on. We get together on October 2009 and lasted till January 2010. Frankly said, along this four years. From 2006 till 2010. I still in contact with Firdaus.

Early this year, me and Firdaus contacted back and he want me back into his life. I love his. sweet talking. Too pro. I love it. Eventually i stand by him... Be there when he needs me... Texting him, calling him and stuff. Like what a girlfriend would do. Waking him up to work and etc.... This been repeating till now. I wasted my time and effort for him. But eventually, one fine day... I found out the truth. From a to z. 3 days straight i shed my tears and finally today i realized that it's no use. Once an animals always an animals. Early this year, he had an affair. Upteen times i asked him to find a gf cuz i don't want to be part of his life anymore but he don't want. He still want me. He said that only me who can control his attitude and stuff. He said that he still love me and blablabla. See i told ya.. He is pro in sweet talking. That is why i started to be with him back early this year. But one faithful day, i found out the truth. He had an affair behind my back. All this while, it explains everything on why he do not have money, no time for me and stuff. What happen now is the same thing that had happened in the year 2007, December. But I'm just so stupid to give him chance after chance after chance...

See how wicked he is. See how unfaithful he is... I hate him and i mean it. I care and concern bout him but he just simply throw shits after shits after shits on me. When can he change to be a better person? People been telling me that his changing and that is why he wana come back in my life. But I don't see any changes. Blind ah you people?..... I know every single things that had happened. My close friend even told me what he had talked bout me to her. I'm the girl that knew him for 4 fucking miserable years. Know his good and bad attitude. Inside out of him. Every single thing i knew and this is how he reward me with.

But I'm glad now, I have my friends. The closes one will do. Alfa and me started to date back again. I knew he miss me so much to the extend he gave me an inbox message @ facebook. Stated that he miss me. His call and his msgs, i've been rejecting because of Firdaus. See how unreasonable i am towards him because of fatty jerk?....... Nevertheless, I'm happy that he would stand by me. Even though we broke off a year ago. He still texting me. Asking me how am i and stuff.. His the one and only ex-boyf that know how to take care of my feelings till now.

A note to Mr Fatty Jerk.

Dear Firdaus.

Please leave me and get out of my life and NEVER EVER come back in my life again. Without you I am happy and satisfied with my precious life. I wasted enough time and effort for you and i know it's not worth it at all. Instead of you, alot of people out there need that. Go on with your helpless, useless life and remember what you did to me can be karma for you. It is a heart pain if that karma come to u from other person tau. But what to do. Oh well. I loose you, i gained someone better. You are just nothing. Those who have fall for him, take him and by all means. Goodluck on you girls out there. If he changed for you girls, that is good for you la. May we meet again and i guess when we meet again it will be my engagement day. Heeee~ So please stop wasting your life and settle down. I dont believe in you that you said that you already settle down. Oh my.... I've been thinking bout writing a novel about your life.... Do you mind?...... :D

Your Sincerely
Siti Naqiah
Ex-girlfriend yang paling " rabak "

2010-06-17T04:05:00.002+08:00

I'm having a bad bad feeling right now......
Wondering what will happen.....
Whatever happen, just believe it's fate and I'm sorry......
It's best that we stick to what we are now....
We loose each other back then and we cannot be what we used to be...
People change. Everything change.
I am happy now. I know you are always there for me, thank you...
All the best for your Terengganu Trip. Ride safely.

fyi, I'm being so kental right now. I cried.....

2010-06-06T02:21:00.002+08:00

I wish to take back every single words and I'm moving on.
Set myself free and have fun..

2010-06-01T16:49:00.001+08:00

He text me up and I'm happy bout it.

I've long forgive you, dear. What i want is, you to be by my side. I'll wait.

I Love You Zal.

2010-05-23T11:14:00.006+08:00

I've watched this and like hell.
Terpekik-terpukau aku dibuatnye.
My lil sister was like hello~ this is just a movie.
But I don't care and i hate it.
Storyline, as usual, malay movie what would you expect same old stories.
Dengki~

Another movie I've already watched.
No comment, i felt like cracking the cd into two.
Don't ask me why. -.-

Last Thursday, hang out with my beloved loves one. The old peeps. Finally everything is fine even those minor things * just closed one eye* shan't elaborate it. Well at least I must thank Pel for being understanding. Drinking is always the way of spilling every truth out from you. So i had a drinking session with him and I thank him for listening everything that lingers in my mind. Abide from that, Kakak chill with us and i seriously miss her. How I wish we could be like last time. The four of us. Should know who they are.

I've not be going to school for the past one week and i have to buck up. Exams are coming and i have to attend school. As promise, I need a job, baaaaaadly. I miss working and i need money for ehem-ehem.. hehe~ update soon.

2010-05-12T05:43:00.002+08:00

I love him and only him.
I'm gonna wait for you... yes, you...
I wanna be with you forever.

2010-04-30T20:27:00.003+08:00

see that. Lady Gaga amputate her leg just for fashion. Omgeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I envy her fashion style but surely not im not gona amputate my leg just like her. Who on earth would amputate their own leg for fashion? Gagap skejap aku. lol.

School had started and approximately now, it's been a month I'm in Bishan Central. School was okay and now i miss working.... -.-'

I miss tanning @ Sentosa. Will go there soooooon. Maybe with some new bunch of people. Nyahahaha! I can't wait for that. Next week, will be going out with them to East Coast. Hopefully I'm not being a pathetic girl paitaooooo. hahahahah!

I looooove mafia wars~ Mafia wars with Bummy. *winks*

I knew we can't last for long and that is why I'm making a decision to wait for Bummy, only.
No more this and that. You guys know who you are...

2010-04-10T07:47:00.003+08:00

I do believe in miracles but no point of me staying here waiting for you...
It's better that i just move on and enjoy every single minute that i left with.
I'm tired cuz I did tried my very best, still I can't fix it everything back in a good condition.....

2010-04-05T15:24:00.002+08:00

You are a motherfucking bitch.
A BIG BIG SLUT.
Read that, BIG SLUT!

still have the cheek to come. OMGeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
asshole.

oh well, sometime i pity you.
You always be a 2nd taker. hahaha!
tak laku kot~

2010-04-03T17:20:00.003+08:00

You prove me wrong.....

I know you still have the feelings.
Stop being egoistic.

Yes, i still do love you.

2010-04-01T06:26:00.002+08:00

Can i say i hate you, pleaaaaaaaaassssssssseeeeeeeeeeee.

Kinda weird. But I really can mix with them rather than them.
Can't wait for Friday. Better make my night happy you dumb dumb.

And i do miss Shima somehow.....
hmm.... i hope i get to meet you up soon.

Early morning, blabbering unnecessary stuff, normal for me. HAH!

2010-03-31T03:45:00.002+08:00

I'm not so sure what I'm doing right now. Waiting for school to start and I feel like killing myself for delaying my time doing stupid stuff. Sometime i just thought of giving up but I know that I got responsibility to carry. I still have my parents that i have to take care of them when they getting old. I'm trying my very best to stabilize my mindset to just keep myself low but pfft... people just can't stop talking. sheeeeessshhh!

I've got everything straight now with Yat (finally). Between me and him are just friends like normal friends. One problem, solved. Life is such a hassle. A big big HASSLE that I almost give up. Urghhhh!

Patience is Virtue. Remember that!

Had my red wine and I'm off to sleep now.
Goodnight, Bummy. *heart whispers*

2010-03-30T03:46:00.003+08:00

I just feel like updating bout myself. Been thinking bout it sometimes. I think it’s best that I let it all out rather than keeping it to myself. No one can help except for me, myself and I.

I’ve been having dreams, nightmares and stuff. Out of 100, 50 of it I dreamt bout him and another 50 bout life surrounding and me. I just don’t know what’s happening to me these few days. I admit I miss him. I tried my very best to forget bout him but I can’t. I don’t know whether is it just me or is it because I got to see his face frequently. Urgh! I really wish that somehow I’m back with him. It’s not easy for me to move on. He is everything to me. I realized that.

If I were to be given a choice between Tweet, Alfa, Sharizal, Haslam or Hidayat , I will choose Sharizal. Sensible, most care & concern, never ever give up to make me smile, trustworthy, husband materialistic, independent, support me and a lot till I could not even describe it. Easy said, his heart made of gold. I’m stupid. The dream guy that I have always wanted is just right in front of me but I took advantage. Those shits that I went through with him, was my entire fault. I’m to be blame. Not him. Not a single thing. He did nothing wrong. He was just there to give me support on whatever things I’m doing. Never in his life, stopped me from what I’m doing. He didn’t stop me from drinking, smoking mixing up with friends and etc. He just wants to see me happy. That was his wish. But now, it seem to me turn out to be sour. The reason is simple. It’s me. Just me, myself and I. I’m a stubborn lady. I’m being selfish to him. He is a guy. He got the rights to demand me, to do whatever he want to do to me but as long as it does not go beyond the women’s limit that is fine. He got every right to do. But I’m the one who make it to be me having the right not him. I’m selfish, arrogant, and stubborn. In the end I will be the loose out ones. I had fun living a life with him. If only there’s undone button in life. I hate to have this feeling. I’m trying my very best. If only God could hear my prayers. Each night I will look at moon and see how gorgeous it is and will always remind me of him. Only he know my attitude, my type of girl and only he know what is my favorite magi.

He willing to do anything for me backs then. One morning, I was craving for my favorite magi cup noodle. He went straight to 7-11 stores and bought it, placed it outside of my house. He messaged me and said that my cup noodle is ready to be eaten because he had bought for me that. Just to take care of my feelings. See how willingness and gentlemen he is. I tend to get sick easily. I remembered he bought me medicines after clubbing. Though he was a little bit drunk. He still made his way to meet me and bought me medicines. I was having high fever. Even after he knew that I have this undesirable illness. He was still there for me. Still giving me life support. He wants me to be strong. Though that sickness do affect my health terribly somehow, he was still there giving me support and good words to make me to be strong in life. He even prays to God to give me another chance to repent and to get well and live like normal human. Amazingly, he did that. He was just a boyfriend to me back then. Not yet part of my family. Not yet a husband. Not my father. Not my brother. Just a boyfriend and he did that. Why I can’t see his kindness back then. Why can’t I see that he is the right one for me, back then? Why????? I’ve done shits to him. I took advantage of him. I’m being selfish to him and his life. I’ve lost him now. I got no confidence to carry on with my life.

Take an example, now. I’m sick. No one takes care of me. No one look after me like he did. No one. I cried to myself. Not even a single soul knew that my illness is back. Not a single soul. I need him in my life. I’m scared and paranoid with guys. But whenever I’m with him in his arms. I felt secure. No worries. I don’t even think that I do have the sickness. He bought for me medicines, food, took care of everything and me. He even gives me his atm card for me to spend on my daily expenses. See how generous and kind-hearted he is. He did that because he felt that I got less attention from him due to his NS. Oh God, I feel the loneliness in me now. I feel the lost. All I ever want from YOU is Sharizal. Just him, alone.

After a month of break ups, I can’t bear to go on with life. A lot of indescribable things happened to me. I’m ashamed out of it. I just do not know how to take care of my own self. He used to remind me to take good care of myself but after the break-up. I became haywire. I just don’t know how I can be like this. I’m scared of people out there. I’m paranoid. I just need him to be by my side always. He is something precious to me. After all I love him. I really do love him. I don’t care if someday he turned out to be cashless. No transportation. No nothing except for himself. I still love him like how I used to. The love that I had with him keeps stronger than I ever had. I want him back in my life. Only him. My grandest wish. It’s not easy to get that type of guy in a women life. Not easy. I hope I’ll be given a second chance to live with him. If I have earned that wish I promise to myself. Not to be foolish, selfish, arrogant and stubborn to him. I will devote my life, my heart and soul and everything to him, just to make him and me happy.

I love you, Sharizal. I love you....

2010-03-22T14:28:00.002+08:00

Happy 13th Birthday Siti Nusrah! You are getting "old" already.
Hope you have a wonderful birthday this year.
Present, wait k. Wait for my pay. coming, coming...
Good luck for your future endeavors.
Be a good kid.
Study well. Make us proud of you.
We love you...
:)

2010-03-21T20:04:00.002+08:00

Good evening.
Hangover and that explain why i woke up late.
I just wana laugh at myself for being the clown yesterday night. hahahahah!
Those who drank with me yesterday night, please keep it to yourself please. loveyou people. heh~

Went out with Madi and Ina. Had a great time with them.
Next week Is belanja. So people please do turn up if you want to be treated by him. hahahaha!
I'll post the pictures asap because my freaking usb cable are nowhere to be found. -.-

Meanwhile, I'm meeting Madi and Endra later on. Endra, supper together. Madi, to layan my merepek-ness. lol. And fuck, my head has gone wild. -.-

Oh , oh it's 21 today. I supposed his out from Detention Barrack. How i wish i can meet him......

2010-03-19T02:49:00.001+08:00

I'm doing some unnecessary stuff like now, blogging. It's 2.08 am and i can still blog. What I wana blog, I also don't know. hahah. Tomorrow I'm working in afternoon shift and I'm still here, in front of my lappy with a mug of milo dinosaur that i intended to do but turn out to but some kind of milo tk menjadi. Great~

Was supposed to me Lestat and go out for drinks but turn out he went drinking with his boys. Baik per kau Afiqgreenmonster. But it's ok. His driving so good luck. hahah. evil sia Naq. Tomorrow i will ask him to fetch me from work and treat me for supper. But still i hate you for bubbling me. Fuckass. Stupid monster, stupid plaster boy and everything regarding you is stupid. But still you're a good friend. awww, jatoh boi.

While i was uploading some of the pictures, the other day. I was reminiscing all those days bout me and friends. hahaha. kental sey aku. But what to do. This is life. hahahaha! wth am i blabbering here? hahaha! fuck la. -.-

I miss al-ameen food and Alfs just got back home from meeting, i guess. Plus I'm hungry. The whole day i was sleeping. Mentang-mentang off kan. So macam no point kan kalau aku ajak si Alpa gi makan. Confirm plus chop, "malas la eu. i penat... " ass.

And now I'm addicted to this.... Wth sia Naq. Gy tdo laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! k bye world~

2010-03-17T11:01:00.003+08:00

It's not easy. Blend in and get yourself fuck from others.
yeah, that is a total fucktard!
i don't even give a fuck care now.

I was fucking pissed off by what had happened just now morning.
Nvm, i just took it as a lesson learn. The main thing is that i don't
give a care now. What's gona happen let it happen....

3 more days to 20th and i can't wait. But sadly, I'm working. :(
It's ok, the next day I'll be working in the morning shift. So yeah, I still can make
it to welcome him back home. Not forgetting Lestat too. Me and Lestat will be
welcoming him home with open arms unless he know how to change..

I'm still cling on to that ankle boot that i want it so much from new look.
Though i already bought the new boot still i want that boot badly. Madi such an ass.

As for now, I need to fork out some pretty cash for Nusrah's Birthday. damnit. -.-

2010-03-14T11:08:00.004+08:00

dusty rusty blog. heh~

Been sometime that I last update on my blog.
I'm happy of what I'm doing now. Just too happy.

School gona start real soon and I can't wait bout it.
Eka gona be the same class as me. hahaha! i guess..
School of the family generation. lol.
Need new bag, new school shoe, new ankle boot for work.
ohh fuck, there goes my pay. waaah! :S

Mom's back from Bangkok.
Miss her but silly that she fall sick when she's there.. ( da tk bnyk shopping ... -.-)

I don't belong to anyone so it's up to me whether i want to do it or not.
Furthermore I'm not seeing anyone now except for my family and the close ones.
So don't bother thinking that I have time to date or in a relationship with anyone. :D

2010-03-01T08:54:00.002+08:00

10th March is confirm and I can't wait.
3rd March,my registration date for my course.
12th April school start.

Number changed.
New chapter of life begin now.
I almost gave up on life but someone pull me up.
Thank you and I know I should have heed your advice earlier on.
I'm sorry and thank you once again..

Lestat and me received some news bout Yat.
Speechless but wishing him the best out of it.
Well, he deserve that.

I started to get sick oftenly.
Wonder what will happen next......

Baby

2010-02-28T06:58:00.003+08:00

Received a call from Alfs bout his sister.
Congratulation to you and family.
I'm excited now and I can't wait to meet the new born baby, soon ya....

Time flies fast. Not regretting but learning more bout it.
Enjoying life. I don't care if i were to fall sick again and again or
if i were to go off from this world. I don't pretty much care bout it
cuz I'm enjoying every single minutes, single seconds of my life.
Thanks Lestat and Rynne for the moral support you both have gave. I love you both. Thank you.
Thanks Fyzah for taking care and concern bout me and showing the love. Thank you..
Thanks to the " Amsterdam Mafias " for being there for me. You know who you are. Thank you..
Thanks Firdaus for concerning bout me all this while. But nothing can change my heart. Still, a big thank you..

Nothing that I can say bout you and me for now. If we are meant for each other one day we will surely get back together and lead a happy life like befo... I know you love me... I know you care bout me... You, not you but you.. Yes, it's you.... go figure.

Blabbering unnecessary stuff early in the morning. lol. I shall end here. Appointment with Alfs later. Need some sleep for now. Oh, I'm not surprise that after this, either party misunderstood bout me and Alfs. Heh! Good nightmorning people.

2010-02-23T04:49:00.003+08:00

10th March plan to picnic together with the junks.
Madi told me so don't ask me how I get to know bout this info.
I will say East Coast pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?
Atleast we can cycle, roller-blade and stuff.

Madi kental tak tau roller-blade. lol

Okay so these people, take note horrrrrrrrrrr.
Inna, Ikah, Madi, Remy, Syahir, Emma, Farhan, Kimmie, Is.

Bye. See you people sooon liao.

2010-02-18T12:46:00.004+08:00

atikah mesti takder tau in the picture. grr!

feedbacks from them, like a ciiiiiiiiiiibaaaaaaaaaaaaai. hahahaha!
ok ok. let's meet up. much more easier. okay peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?
love you guys so much lor. :D

when you guys free? Tomorrow or Saturday?

2010-02-17T09:52:00.003+08:00

Since no one up to any suggestion for our upcoming outing. So let me list down some suggestion that we can spent our time together. For us to have fun and to create more bonding against one other. I love you people that is why I'm doing this ok. Tak pernah eh Naqiah semangat macam gini.Kalau tak asik paitaooooooooooooooooooooooo jer. lol.

To: Inna, Madi, Is, Atikah, Syahir& Emma, Remy, Kimmy, A'an.

korang dengar sini eh. Ni makcik Naq ni nak kasi korg tmpt. dengar tauuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

1. Sheesha cum dinner over at Arab St
2. Seoul Garden(Naq dapat makan free lagi. heh!)
3. Mad jack, lunch or dinner
4. Sakura buffet, lunch or dinner
5. Picnic at East Coast.

Choose. Out of 5, choose one only. Jangan pandai-pandai nak choose more than one!
After choosing, go and leave your message at my tagboard. Korg spam, korg siap. Aku boleh check ip address ehhhhhhh!

2010-02-16T07:50:00.003+08:00

Thanks for taking my happiness away.
I'm not regretting but I'm learning from it.

This is life. Oh well, I'm not surprised with it anymore. :)

2010-02-14T11:31:00.004+08:00

I don't give a fuck care to anyone, now.
except for you cuz i belief in you.

2010-02-12T17:04:00.002+08:00

lan lau kau. thumbs up.
if only i took picture of me in my costume wear. hah!
you, my motivation to be back in my Botja.
hahaha. chill Naq chill jangan violent. -.-

2010-02-10T02:55:00.002+08:00

I miss this bunch of people. kite gi makan lagi jooooooooooooooooooom!
Promise tak paitao. heh! I love you guys... and not forgetting ATIKAH SANI. lol
miss you all like 29949495068584990202084850504049494949302022294857393405 times.

2010-02-08T09:03:00.002+08:00

I do love you but if this is the way you're treating me.
fine, i leave you.
Well it makes you happy though.
Im not gona celebrate your birthday with you...
Atleast a wish from me, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY.....

2010-02-05T12:36:00.003+08:00

A girl that always up to something funny. A girl that always made people laugh because of her stupidity and a girl that always full of surprises. Syugah. Happy 18th Birthday to her. May our friendship still go on no matter how much obstacle that we have to go through. I love you babe. I cherish the friendship that we made. No matter what, I still stand strong for you.Good luck for your future endeavors. Once again, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY. :D

and i love these the most.
the love! :D

2010-02-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

AKU STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

fuck everyone la ciiiiiiiiiiiitaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!
-.-

2010-01-30T07:38:00.002+08:00

Met the Mr Troublemaker.

I can't love both at the same time.
URGH!

It's difficult,hard,not easy for me to choose between both you....

alfalfalfalfalfalfalfabumbumbumbumbumbum

AMIK KAU NAQ! -.-"

2010-01-27T05:06:00.016+08:00

Dear Zal,

How wonderful it will be if you are here with me.
Cuddling me,kissing onto my forehead and after that put my hand under your hairy armpit... :)

I love you because........

you love to bring me to Mustafa Centre and bought your stuffs for camp and in the end, I'm the maid of the night, had to carry all your things back home. you are the punching bag for me whenever I got mad,piss, unhappy or just for the fun of it.you always let me win although I lost in a game that we used to play cuz you know you have a irritating gf that will keep pestering you all day long.you were always on time and have to wait for me patiently.you looks cute when I put cilli padi on your food without you noticing so that you're like a fool eating it and after that you will be asking for water in a desperate manner. you love to quarrel with me. you don't even scold me when I almost used up all your money from your POSB account. you are lame and full of non-amusing jokes. you got a bike. it is easier for me to travel with you due to the transportation that you have. you sleep with your mouth open and snores like a pig. you will message me in the morning that i can't get back to sleep and i hate that most. "good morning gemok/pantat/bushyukk/masam and etc". you love to colored me in front of our friends. you treat me like a princess, granting all what i want but not my everyday needs. you know how to make me smile and happy even though it were to be the worst day I ever had.

No matter how un-gentlemen you are, you still know how to carry my heart nearer to yours. Thanks to your sweet words. You are indeed one of the sweet talkers BUT the good and respectable ones. And I do love you because you made me the priority ones that you have to take care, handle and concern for..... Not because of what you have but because of what you already had in you..... Your golden precious heart....

iloveyou....

2010-01-21T13:56:00.002+08:00

afternoon people....

cooked pasta, again. pastafreak.
clean up my messy room.. -.-
but sadly, i've not yet shower. lol. busook punya olang.

Had a lil convo with Mr Troublemaker.
sadly, he is going to the jungle for some army things,today. -.-
well, his meeting his mates there... monkeys.
I hope he is having a good time there. :)

The convo between me and him started to be serious when he spoke to me bout
Omar... I was shocked when i get to hear the real Omar.... was lucky enough that I'm not
in contact with him anymore. Well, whoever has him, good luck to you love. :)
Thank you for the life saver, Mr Troublemaker or else my future will be ruin by him.

Should i still stick with the love ones or just move on alone.
I feel the lost now.....

2010-01-20T23:41:00.002+08:00

I'm sick..
down with fever, bad coughing(batok anjing) and flu...
must be the weather i guess.... It's been a week plus you kno!...
But i like it... Especially my voice.. Heh!

My face become more dark or i suppose my skin? lol.
Been sun-tanning.. I think i should stop going Sentosa...
itu tempat banyak puaka. pergi putih balik gelap. puaka punya tempat. lol.

Sunday, imma gonna makeover my hair,
after so long... -.-

Weekends is coming..
Not a single plan....
Bummy will be enjoying himself with his friends....
While me, rotting at home i guess...

ooh ya, Mr Troublemaker been wanting to meet me..
so should i meet him this weekends?
shall see.

Night, off to sleep.
TIIIIIIIRRRRRREEEEEED & SLEEEEEEEEEEEPYYYYY!

2010-01-15T15:53:00.007+08:00

Gotten my O level result. Please don't asked bout my result, no use, not applicable. lol

I've been thinking of joining the ICA Specialist.
Sounds cool huh. chop-chop passport. lol.
Still on consideration whether to join or not...
But then I've already applied it online. -.-
Well, wait after 6 months and we'll see if i do get the posting or not. heh!
best per Naq, tukar tukar keje... badigol.

ok off for my medication.
& to all my west spring schoolmate,
Congrats on your result. May we meet again and keep contacting.
Love you guys....

& to makcik kpo (cika suaidi)
stop being a public nuisance.
MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS, STOP BEING A KPO!

2010-01-07T19:05:00.003+08:00

OMAR HASLAM CEPAT BALIK!

Having dinner later with him,
either madjack or eighteen chef.

I can't wait for this tua to get back home and go dinner with me later.
Im hungggrraaaaaaaaayyyyy! Befo i start my cranky-ness better come home fast.

Meanwhile, i can't wait for next week.
woooooooooo~

Gee, 2 camera was found in one night. Good huh?
That is the advantage of being a taxi driver.
GOOOOOOOD JOB DAD! -.-"

2010-01-05T19:17:00.002+08:00

I feel like killing you. seriously. you and your team.
FUCKING ASSHOLE HUMANS!
take note.

2010-01-04T18:02:00.007+08:00

It's 2010. All i could think off is enjoy and work. I don't want to stuck in a confuse relationship status anymore, though im still in that situation now but i chose not to think of it . Hanging? so be it.

Last Saturday was my cousin's biggest day. Her wedding. Alhamdullilah, everything went smoothly well.Congrats to her... Everyone was there except for Alfa. His family was there but not him. His mom kept apologizing to me and wanted me to be her in-laws blablabla. The only thing i can do is just smile though i feel like crying and i could only say this is fate. There's nothing left that i could say because the problem start from him not me. Upcoming 17th Jan, his first sister's wedding and his mom want me to be there. Again, im thinking of shiqa. what will happen to her if i were to be there....... n why the fucking hell i must think bout others? again and again... weakness in me.. fuck.

Chat up with Has and planning the short hols with him. I just don't understand him. Somehow he don't want to loose me and the other party. He scared of getting regret. stupid. I'll post the convo between me and him later on. I myself don't understand what the hell he want. -.-'

Sharizal and me tried to patch things up. slowly. insyallah.... No promises that we can be together. I'm just hoping the best out of us. 2 more weeks, P.O.C.... Happy for him....

*Has and me convo*
H: kalau tak p bali then go whr?
N: Bangkok
H: hmmm.... bali mcm mahal gtuh. i will try find the cheap one la..
N: ok. make me happy for once pls...
H: hahaha. ok ok. we go for short get away.
N: brp hari kiter g?
H: 3 days maybe
N: ok. tpi bintan, batam, pulau redang not bad tau. hahaha. hw?
H: ur call la. then i find for our accomodation and flight.
N: ooo, ok. think we just go bali first.. hah!
H: aper u buat?
N: need to photocopy some stuff n off i go. btw we go hol only 2 of us right? org lain tk bising ke?
H: ape yg bising.
N: ya. you go with me only... n one gona be piss off?
H: buat bodoh la.... remember.... i want to go bcoz i wana spent time with u.... juz kip it to ourself n let us have fun ok... u nk pk whoever u tkkn have fun....
N: hmmm.... ok. its ur choice. i rather keep it to myself. smetime i just felt tht its not fair to me... nvm la... just drp the subject.
H: im trying to be fair ... n i noe its not fair for u... susah la dear... i sendiri pening tau...
N: u cnt love 2 person at one time.
H: i noe. senang kate im selfish... if u think i didn't do the right thing....u can leave me...n be someone else...
N: i cn do tht long time ago. but y i didnt? has, i diam kasi u time to think. kasih u enjoy nt becuz i give up tpi i wana see until wen u want to be like this. u kno me first then izyan. tpi u hilang mcm gytuh jer. there's alot of guys out there tried to communicate with me.be it fb, msn, msg and etc but i avoid all those. becuz of u. cuz i kno its unfair to u....
H: i phm naq... im old enuf to think.. i noe its not fair to u....
N: and then?
H: but... the choice that had been given to me its sucky. watever i choose still suck.
N: u spent most of ur time with izyan and tuh pon u ckp sucky?
H: it sucks ok. cuz u want to kno y? cuz i have to leave u just like that.
N: i am the most stupid-est girl on this earth. always think of others.. i don't regret. the only way to get in touch is thru here. our plan to go short hols and the eighteen chef. lol. thts all im left with u....
H: aper je la. tkmu merepek la. hp u asal uh? da top up?
N: y?
H: da top up blm?
N: da. tpi da habis. y? by 6 i have to go ah.
H: go whr...?
N: hm la. tk pon meet my frends.
H: hmmm..... ok.
N: ok goodbye, takcare.
H: bye dear......

2009-12-31T19:23:00.003+08:00

resolution for 2010.

-Trip to Bali.
-Trip to Bangkok.
-More income. -.-
-Pass my driving license.
-New lifestyle.
-New things in life.

Happy New Year to my families and friends. May you bless with a good year ahead. 2010, im begging you not to be a bitch please. At least make me happy for this upcoming year. ;)

2009-12-30T15:11:00.005+08:00

im just confused. for the meantime, im single... leading a good life with my stable work. alhamdulillah..... may you guy have a great time with your own life.

Sharizal, Alfa, Haslam

Goodbye~

2009-12-25T13:56:00.002+08:00

good day.

i had a hard time now. work work work.
I've been thinking on un-privating my blog. *tangan gatal!*

Finally i got my ipod back. wooooohoooooooooooo!
The ass thing was he deleted all the apps, songs and photos. fucking absurd lor.
Furthermore the screen were cracked/damaged by him. *asshole*
bleargh~ Karma is there, don't worry lor.

Today is 25th. Ohh, Merry Christmas to those that celebrating it..
As usual, no plan for today. Not working. Rotting at home like never been like this befo. lol.

People surrounding me must know my status by now. I shall not elaborate it here. Cuz to me it seems nothing to me and him. I don't see any effort. I don't see the love. lol. *single ladies*

Meeting the love ones later.
Chalo.

Illuminati such a whore.

2009-12-10T11:52:00.003+08:00

I've watch some vid bout those Illuminati. Crap, outrageous, absurd, whore and all those vulgar words that are meant for it. Pity all those people that worship The Satan. Stupid, dumb, bloody assholic people. I can't stop discriminating them. Lol. Hah! If you guys were to see carefully, those white and black people worship the Satan that came from the US country are all those bullshitters and that is why their country always had those natural disasters. I'm not surpsrise if there is any natural disasters gona struck at the American's country. Fuck the Illuminati for goodness sake.

2009-12-08T17:40:00.003+08:00

Let me get everything clear...
I don't want people to ask me in future cuz it just make myself hurt more.
We are not together but we still keep contact.
We may look like a couple but we are actually not.
Don't be surprise that I'm actually talking bout me and Bummy.

so babies, im single now....

2009-12-02T03:53:00.004+08:00

damn lazy to update.
nothing that i can talk about.
but all i can say, i'm enjoying every single
moment that takes place.

time will tell. Definitely after this, i will
laugh and applaud for my happiness. So
now, be prepared on some God's gifts that HE
had stored for you. :)

2009-11-13T00:03:00.007+08:00

too many things running in my mind.
sometimes people just don't think what
others might thought about them.
its better that i just keep it to myself.

and you, thank you for hurting me.
thank you for being the jerk of my life.
thank you for making my condition to be worsened.
Its time for me NOT to think bout your feelings anymore.
You are just a plain ASSHOLE in this world.

I'm having my next appointment next week.
wish me luck.

2009-11-09T18:27:00.008+08:00

i want a Persian kitten. i want it as a pet. i've been doing online searching bout this cat and im so in love with it......... look, how adorable they are...... especially the black persian kitten....... awww........

*white persian kitten*

*shaded silver persian kitten*
*chocolate tortie persian kitten*

*chocolate persian kitten*

*calico persian kitten*

*black persian kitten*

2009-11-03T11:53:00.004+08:00

low self-esteem now.....
i wana cry and i already did.
i felt that im loosing the grip of everyone....
be it my boyfriend and my closed friends....
nevertheless, i miss my boyfriend terribly, now.....

2009-11-01T23:37:00.004+08:00

too much politics between this circle of friend.
i had enough. it's best i just walk off from them.
i guess, this is life....

2009-10-30T15:45:00.000+08:00

fuck!
let's just put it that i'm leaving you people.
ok bye!

2009-10-29T18:46:00.007+08:00

I'm supposed to touch on my books for some last minute prep but my fingers just can't bear to let it go from my lappy. well, at the very least i shall update this boring blog just to kill time as I'm meeting Nurazilla later on for my koko crunch ice cream @ Mac. -.-" lets see what shall i update...

i private my blog becuz i realize that some people out there do not know what's the meaning of blogging. Let me define you on that. Blog is where the blogger let out their thoughts, a whole out of it and its not the matter of let other see it or not but it's the matter of changing to be much more better person, after being talked about in the blog. so yeah, you can't expect the blogger to wrote something nonsensical, right?...... whatever la, still you can't read these fucking shit that i wrote bout cuz i private it.

everything just not right this few days. Miss-ing Alfa is one big stupid thing that happened to me. Hand phone of mine spoil, the button is not working. Lack of sleep due to O level and my high fever is back. I kept falling sick now and then and my body system is not as good as before. i often cough, a bad one and down with high fever, which i barely walk. Each time I'm having my high fever, i will lay down on my bed aimlessly. pathetic.

gee, i still have the cheeks to blog where else I've not yet bath.
ok, im done here.
*nurazilla, aku nak koko crunch. *

2009-10-29T08:58:00.001+08:00

GOODBYE TO YOU.

2009-10-28T00:53:00.003+08:00

i miss him. what the fuck, i have a boyfriend!
fucking-shit.
i should not have said that. get out out out from my mind!
*slap forehead*

2009-10-22T08:21:00.003+08:00

i can't be bothered by anything or anyone becuz i know i might got no much time in this world. Dear God, take my life A.S.A.P..... people surround me or rather the loved ones should know why. Now on regular check-ups. Do anything that might satisfy you.

2009-10-21T20:42:00.002+08:00

i dont care and nevertheless could not be bother.
be happy always.

2009-10-20T14:29:00.003+08:00

Finally i had a tiff with Alfa. Totally, i don't care bout it. Why should i been thinking bout him if he kept doing SUCH things to me, again and again. I must be grateful that i do still have Sha with me. I must say that ever since I'm with him, I'm a bad girlfriend. seriously talking, I'm not the old me that used to be particular on boyfriend's needs. Maybe because I'm too tired to attend to their attention rather than mine and now the one who have to suffer is Sha. Thank God that he is a good and patience guy that willing to be with me despite of my irritating behaviour. He gave me his happiness and making me happy is his priority in his life. Somehow i must change and be wary of my boyfriend's needs. I don't want to loose this precious guy just because of someone else that have been torturing my heart though its hard for me to forget that particular person. I should believe in karma perhaps. enough said bout him.

To brighten up my day, i can't wait to meet my babies later. They will make me forget all those problems that linger around my mind.They are the good source of medication of people with too much problems. I have a good time with them.Not forgetting my ex primary school mate. Recently we went Seoul Garden to have our dinner there and i could feel the bonding. Love them.

2009-10-15T18:53:00.004+08:00

I'm down with high fever and i seriously can't take it any longer. Someone please bring me to the doc. I felt weak to walk by my own self and i need someone to accompany me..... urgh! sickening...... But still, there's nothing can stop me for tomorrow event. :)

Received a news that Alfa met an accident. freaking shit. i straight away called him and was told that he had some injuries around his knee area. Overall his leg are full with injuries. Oh well, take care and get well soon. Seriously, i pitied his k8. No matter what, just be more careful when you are on the road. :)

I chat with my old buddies a few hours ago. Seems to me that ego is always there be it a lady or a gentleman. If only i have the power to kill the ego away....... ok stop! I chat with this particular lady that i don't think i should name it here (privacy loh). It's been awhile that I last chat and met her. She used to be my closed friends but something happened between us that leads to misunderstanding becuz of this pathetic guy that used to be my boyf (stalker). oh wait, i no regrets of breaking up with him after 2 and half years together. lol. ya, so i guess now its the right time to talk nicely with her and get back on track with her. But somehow it seems that she's too ego. The way she replied me and so i ended up my convo with her by " ok lor."...... that means, i just can't be bothered anymore la.

I'm just wondering... Until when can those misunderstanding issues can just be fade away just like that....Such as forgive and forget.... Prolly when can those people think wisely and maturely? Until they are married and have children? Until they are suffering and going to die and by then you want the other party to forgive you? Or until they feel that no one else are there for them and they going back to the old friends that they used to have the misunderstanding issues? Ego. Too much ego in them. I don't mind losing those type of friends like i said on my previous post. I do not have any regrets. Friends come and go. So be it. I don't mind and they don't matter. But sometime i have this thinking..... Don't they felt any shame with their background life that is disgusted or something that can bring disgrace to them? lol. ok, i guess that is quite harsh.

alright, im off for my dinner.
take care people.

oh, to the passerby. weekdays i don't eat much, weekends i do. heeee!
and i seriously got no idea that i do have a slim body.... becuz now ive been thinking on cutting down my weight. :P